renegade 10 sketches

drawn 10 Aug, 2006
pencil on paper

lucita the candle, the flame mage in the comic. just practing drawing a character with a hat. very tricky for me. her hands however, i could not draw right to save me. i'll add them later, i suppose.

( another sketch under here... )

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This past Sunday would have been 6 years for Ken and me. Needless to say, it was a rough weekend. I decided to stop by the cemetary on the way to his folk's house. I cried and talked to him, hoping he could hear. Afterwards, as i drove back up the gravel road to The Prince's place, i realized something:
I had been procrastininating a bit that morning, part to steel up the nerve to go because i knew it would hurt, but while i was at home procrastinating, i felt some genuine happiness. I realized that was Ken, helping me through this. The moment i recognized that, i felt something like a hug, not a physical one, but a hug just the same. Happy and relivied, i started crying again.
as a result, i am doing better. i'm not over this by a long shot and still have bouts of tears, but it helped greatly. still miss him terribly.