Dealing with my issues

[bluecanarykit]

oil pastel
painting in progress

when Becca and i moved in to our new place, i noticed that my coffee table, an Ikea cheapie, had a busted leg. It was broken right where it screws into the tabletop with no possibility of fixing it. I decided to remove the remaining legs and turn the top into art.

I prepped the surface with clear gesso and waited for an idea. About a month went by.

The words in the background are from an english translation of a sonnet by Pablo Naruda. Becca turned me on to his poetry. She was showing me and girlwithoutfear this as we were listening to a recording of the choir she was in at KU. the choir had a performance with a theme on love and grief. this poem has been set to music and as we listened, Becca told us about the poem. Once she reread it, however, she didn't want to show it to me, thinking it would hurt.
It did, but i just can't keep avoiding stuff do to the pain. i'm eschewing the annual district fair this year because of memories, but i know i don't need to let it become an excuse. anyhow,  after reading this touching and heartfelt poem. i knew i had my answer to my painting.
i ran out of room, so that's not the complete poem and i messed up and accidently switched a couple of lines around.

we'll see where this painting goes. i still miss Ken. not a day goes by that i don't wish he was still here.

Comments

[dlphntat.livejournal.com]

that...
is amazing.
I'm quite moved looking at that.

[girlwithoutfear.livejournal.com]

I watched some of the work in progress, and it's pretty awesome.

[bigdpimpin.livejournal.com]

i really like it.

[brightflashes.livejournal.com]

This is really gorgeous!

[mrsduck42.livejournal.com]

Once again...you are one of the most amazing and strong people I've ever met. I'm so glad I've gotten to know you more. I wondered what you were going to do with this...I saw the work in progress. It's amazing!

[bluecanarykit.livejournal.com]

i don't feel all that strong, to tell truth. quite the opposite.
i'm glad you like it.

i'm also glad i've gotten to know you better. 8^)

[kelliesan.livejournal.com]

Kit, I'm so happy you are able to use art as a medium to help you express your pain, as that is what art should do. You're an amazing talented friend that cried and was happy for me during my happiest and darkest of days. I will always cherish and be thankful for the example you've shown me.

Kellie

[bluecanarykit.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
i'm just trying to get by, day-to-day, not trying to be something for others to live up to. i'm flattered you think that highly of me.

[kelliesan.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

i know how that feels kit. it's a day by day process since michael and i split earlier this year. some days are good, other days are not so good. i call those the chocolate ice cream days (or anything with chocolate). one of these days i hope it'll get easier. just know that you have a hug whenever you want one!

Kellie

[hillarygayle.livejournal.com]

I can't believe I never commented on this. This is beautiful; I noticed it in the hallway at your house. It's just...I don't know. I sorta see hope in it because I see the girl with her arms raised as you, but I also feel when I'm looking at it like all the other Ladiez & 2.0 are standing beside me, behind you. Like if you (in the picture) needed to turn around, we'd be there for reassurance.

Sometimes I feel like telling Ken that you'll be where he is eventually, but until then he doesn't have to worry. Until then, we'll take care of you when you need it.

[bluecanarykit.livejournal.com]

and i can't believe i'm only just now replying. i'm such a slacker.

i plan on adding a bird flying away in the upper left corner. something that is leaving and can't be regained. i also planned on showing the figure's shadow to be that of two people, not one. perhaps i should increase that number.

*hugs* you, the ladiez, jo, caroline, and alice have been the best friends and support i could ever ask for.
ya'll are keeping me sane. i can't thank you enough.